“See how fast this year passed, you better start doing what you wanna do”

It’s been three months since I updated the blog and I’m not sure I haven’t lost my flow, but let’s close the year now shall we?

While I have not written (or read) anything outside of my school work, I still feel gratified by the past three months. I thought of writing a list of resolutions but I realized I have none. Not because I don’t want to pursue the proverbial “new me”, but because I have resolved, every day for the past three months, to do better, to be better. I have taken each new day as a chance to a new beginning and done things differently. I have taken deep breaths and loved just as deep. I have laughed hard and stayed present in every space I entered. It has not been smooth sailing because I am not perfect. But still, I tried, every day, to soak in each moment and pick myself up after failure. I have taken the necessary breaks and asked for help when I needed it. I have worked out, failed and gotten back to the gym over and over again. I have constantly lived my resolutions and I’m more than grateful for that. That’s the journey. It’s never linear. Never clear. But that’s the beauty of it. I have received and given love to the most wonderful and supportive peeps in my life. I have forgiven and healed in that order. I have resolved to make everything around me beautiful because that is what I want my life to be. I have been more unapologetic in my being and in my becoming. I have expressed my love because people can’t read minds. I have found comfort in vulnerability. I have found confidence in myself and poured out to enable others to do the same. I have been lost but I found myself again. I have failed but I’ve given myself a chance to try again. I have valued each day and shown myself the kindness I so wholly give unto others. I have lived because I owe myself my life. This current chapter feels really good. 2018 was the worst of times for me in so many ways, but I found love in myself, and a love like that lights up the whole sky. So here’s to 2019, to higher vibrations, to deeper connections, to more life. Super excited. Happy New Year!